Wonky Weigh-in

260.4

I lost .4 this week.

I will freaking take it.

I haven't been working out as much as I would like to, and my eating has been erratic (My (ex)Hubs is home... we're in the midst of a divorce and hashing things out does not the easiest schedule make)...

I have stayed somewhat active, walking, skating with friends, etc... But not in the way I would've preferred.

But, I kept moving, kept choosing the lesser of evils... and I saw a loss.

Any loss at all this weekend is a great one.

I WILL be in the '50's next week.

Weigh-in Day

As of this morning I am 261 even.

I lost .2 lbs this week.

Considering last week's big loss, and the fact that my schedule has been all kinds of off this week, that's not too shabby.

Down is down.

Chugga chugga, if you will.

I'm a little proud of myself...

This week is wonky, scheduling wise.

I usually go to the gym Mon.-Wed.-Fri., but I had/have things planned Wed. and Fri. this week.  And today (Thurs.), too.

So, I didn't make it yesterday, and I won't tomorrow either (I'll be out of town).

But today, after spending the day with a friend and getting home around 8- I went to the gym!

I got my whole workout in.

Like I said, kinda proud of myself right now.

I get to go buy smaller pants today.

Yeah, the title about covers it.  Hell yeah.

**Edit**

The new pants are TWO sizes smaller than the old ones!!!  And... AND!  Enough things fit that I had to pick and choose what I wanted to buy!!!  Holy shit, that has not happened in a looonngggg while!

This was a pretty damn good day.

Super Exciting Weigh-in

261.2

That's EIGHT POINT TWO POUNDS this week!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was really excited to pass the official 25 pounds lost mark (that would've been 268)- and not only did I hit that, but I blew past it and past the official THIRTY mark (at 263).  Holy crapballs!  I am beyond happy right now.

I weighed myself multiple times just to see if it was a fluke, but those only fluctuated .2 (I was 261 even twice, but I took the higher one)!

Whoa, talk about making up for last week!

I expect to lose nothing again next week, since my body seems to let go of weight in two week cycles, but that's totally ok so long as the overall trend is down.

I'm a little scared to enter the change in my calorie tracker, though.  It's going to take away soo many calories (ok, like, 50... but that's a lot when you're eating around 1400, lol).  Eek, hold me, I'm scared.

Ok, off to eat something and then hit the gym!!  Keep going everyone- we can all do this!!!!!

Frustration Trigger

So, I think I may have figured out why I always seem to stall around 25 pounds lost (Aka: around 265lbs.  Seriously, I've done it at least twice already, and I'm super frustrated right now.).

I look like hell.

Seriously.

Not my body itself, mind you (you know, the important part)- but my clothes.

I'm at that weird in-between stage where clothes from a few weeks ago are way too big (and look awful), but the next size down is still just the tiniest bit too small (and make me look like a stuffed sausage).

My Bestie and I are going out for out monthly girls night tonight and I have been through almost everything in my freaking closet trying to find something to wear.

I'm working so hard, and it's so goddamn frustrating to want to celebrate what I've accomplished, but feel like I look like absolute shit.

And so the triggers circle.  I'm getting so angry in the moment that I'm losing sight of the big picture.  I guess I've done this every time.  Had the emotions kick on and started eating.

I'm glad I'm noticing it.  I'm not giving in this time.

But damnit- is it so much to ask to feel like I look hot for once?!  Shit!

At the gym today...

I'm not sure I really hit it hard enough...

I'm a sweaty sexy (nope, right the first time) sweaty beast!

Mind you, this is after 'drying off' with the windows all open on the 15 minute drive home.

Dear mother of holy crap, I hurt everywhere.  Someone please kill me.  Or at least bring me dinner because I'm too tired to make it.